Thursday, May 22, 2014

Uncovering gratitude

Lately, I've felt stretched thin...with so many responsibilities on my plate. Work. Parenting. Wife. Chef. Homeowner. Referee. Teacher. Therapist.

And I've found myself wishing I could escape the reality that is my life, at least for a few days.

It's not that I don't love my life. But I just feel an overwhelming desire to focus on me for more than an hour at a time when I workout.

When I saw my friend Britt's recent post about not feeling like enough, it resonated with me and I realized I needed to change my perspective.

I am blessed. Beyond measure. And I am grateful (beneath everything that has been burying my gratitude).

So that's why I've finally decided to take the leap...and tackle gratitude journaling.

It's a concept that isn't new, and Britt (and even Oprah) have been touting it for years. But I've always brushed it off as one of this kitschy ideas, thinking I know what is good in my life and can be thankful for what I have without having to write it down.

But I haven't been. And I want to change that.

My gratitude journaling will be a personal thing for me, with a gratitude jar tucked away in a private location just for me.

And I can't wait to see what blessings reveal themselves as I actively look for them.

Monday, May 05, 2014

Update: My year of being a Badass

I've coined 2014 as my year of being a badass and many people have been checking in to see how I've been faring with this goal. Admittedly, I've had my ups and downs this year. Some days I'll feel strong at the gym and take pride when my trainers jokingly call me "badass" and push me to work harder. But other days I lose that confidence when I don't make consistently good food choices or struggle with laziness and lack of motivation.

But I'm human...and those roller coaster emotions, even if it's just in my own mind, is OK. It's part of making me who I am today.

When I look back at my progress, I can't help but feel proud of my slow, but steady steps in the right direction. I've been hesitant to share that progress (mainly out of modesty), knowing that I can camouflage my trouble areas with my clothing choices or camera angles. But today, I'm taking the hopes that I can help inspire others who might struggling with their own body image issues.

My "before" photo is me at my heaviest (about 2 years ago). Compared to my "in progress" photo this month...a leaner, stronger me.

I know my path to feeling like a "badass" will be long and winding. And I won't always feel confident about where I am each day. But I'm confident that I'll get there, one step at a time.

Speaking of steps in the right direction, this past week, I achieved one of my long-term goals...completing an unassisted pull-up.

It was just one rep...but man I was SO proud to have FINALLY marked this one off my goal list. 


Now, I'm thinking I want to work up to doing 3 in a row... 

Monday, April 07, 2014

Saying goodbye...

My Grandpa passed away peacefully yesterday morning with my mom and uncle by his side. He was 97.

I take tremendous comfort in knowing that he's reuniting in heaven with Grandma and enjoying
17 kisses with his beloved wife, who he shared 67 blessed years with.

Grandma and Grandpa on their wedding day 

Grandpa was like our own energizer bunny, rebounding from illnesses and health issues for years. But before then, he was full of energy, working on his own farm well into his 70s.

He was the strong, quite type (perhaps because he had a hard time getting a word in edgewise with Grandma, who loved to talk ;). Even though he was a man of few words, we all knew that...

He loved the Lord.

He loved Grandma.

And he loved his family....

(not to mention dry roasted peanuts and making homemade applesauce, which he asked to make even in his last days).

Grandpa will always have a special place in my heart, not only because of the man he was, but also because he shared a special birthday trifecta with my Daddy and son.

We'll miss you Grandpa...give Grandma a kiss for me ;)

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