Over Christmas, someone lovingly suggested that I might want to re-evaluate my priorities in how I was spending my free time. To be completely honest, I was turned off a bit when they first suggested it. After all, I felt that I had been doing something that I loved...that brought me enjoyment.
And then I thought about it. For days. And finally, after my annoyance had subsided, I realized they weren't wrong.
I had been letting one aspect take over my focus. All the while, letting other very important aspects of my life slip through the cracks of neglect.
And it brought me right back to the struggle I've been dealing with since becoming a mother.
I've blogged about it before and I'm disheartened and embarrassed to admit that I've actually gotten worse at this. My weight has ballooned (I feel a little like Oprah in admitting that I HATE to still be talking about my weight). My discipline with my children has been lacks. My devotions have been barely existent. And all I've really wanted to do was escape somewhere, anywhere, alone.
With the New Year, I'm resolving consciously to devote my time and efforts on the important things in my life. My children. My husband. My Savior. My family and friends. And my health/fitness.
That's a lot of balls to be juggling. And I know that many times some will fall or be neglected. But I can't continue to float through life only focusing on one or two. It's not fair to me or my family.
Does that mean I'm giving up my blog? No. It is something that I love. I relish looking back at old posts and hope they will bring pleasure to my children when they're older. But in 2010 it just might not get updated as frequently. And I'm OK with that.
I'm not that naive to believe that I will be perfect at this life balance thing. In fact, I truly don't believe it's possible to have everything in perfect balance all the time.
But for now, I'm aiming for better balance. And I hope 2010 is the year I finally master it.